I really hate that you lie all the time. It's like you're trying to impress me but I hate that side of you. And that's a hard thing for me to say because I don't hate things. But I seriously, cannot handle when you tell me that you're going to buy those $600 boots. No you're not! Stop saying you will. And you're not going to go to that college campus EVERYWEEKEND from the moment you get your license. So STOP exaggerating. You shouldn't be going there anyway. I don't even think you want to, you're a good person. You want to sit at hope and study for your classes and get good grades and be a good kid. But you put on this show of pretending to be someone you're not. I don't know why, I don't understand. You've tried to stop, you've said you will but I haven't seen any change yet... So get on that. Before I get even more annoyed that your priorities are all mixed up. I don't care if I sound like Hermione Granger right now, she's awesome.
My pet peeve is people who can't freaking figure out what they want. It's like the easiest thing to do. I try to understand why you don't know, but its so simple. "I want some french fries from Burger King. Oh but I need to loose weight" Okay, so don't eat the fries. Done. Wow. That was SOOOO difficult wasn't it?
But not knowing what you want is just a side note of my frustration. Its the way you're 2 or 3 completely different people. You adapt to talk to others. You aren't anyone if you think about it. How am I supposed to trust you and know you if you don't yourself? You're unstable and it drives me crazy. You're insecure and I want to help. But because you're insecure you won't open up and admit it. Therefore there's no way to help. Way to go.
You're not the only one in my life like this. I'm probably speaking to like 5 people here...
And I don't hate you, I hate that part of you. I've seen the real you before, and I LOVE LOVE LOVE that part. You know I do too. But you're just too overwhelmed by what people think of you to just let your real self show. It's a shame that people have that much influence over you. You must walk around with the heaviest burden to be what you think people want you to be. But you need to be what YOU want you to be.
I'm here if you need help. But don't expect me to tell you how to cut your hair, or what your should wear. I'll just help you figure out what you want. Hopefully...
Thursday, 4 December 2008
How to Procrastinate
I know how difficult it is for some people to get things done. But in this how to column, I will give you a step-by-step guide on how to procrastinate.
First we should look into why we would want to learn this trait. If you’re in high school and don’t know how then something is wrong. You’re one of those kids who turn that feature story in the morning it’s due, having already had it revised by your old English teacher, parents, and editor of the school newspaper.
Caution: If the above describes you, then you are over achieving and need to be more of a teenager.
The best way to begin the procrastination process is to get ride of the innate desire of being good. Forget that happy tingling feeling you get from turning your overdone assignment. In fact, forget the fresh stack of assignments folded in your binder waiting to be completed. Once you’ve mastered the fact that you aren’t willing to ever do the task you’re ready for the next step.
Find things to distract you. Often people dwindle away their time watching television. Great shows to get hooked on might be Heroes, The Office, or something completely pointless, Desperate Housewives. Beginning this habit can take time, be sure to set aside at least 2 hours a day for the new behavior.
Now you’re time is beginning to be filled up. That’s good: it means you’re another step closer to meeting the goal of procrastination. Here comes the fun part. Open the doors to everything you’ve ever wanted to do, but never felt you had time for. What used to happen on school nights was that you never went out to eat, because you were stuck at home doing homework. That life is in the past! Give in to the temptation it’s okay.
If you followed this plan correctly then you most likely have a different mindset. No longer will you ever have to face the pain of turning things in on time, or starting that project early to save room for even more homework.
Let me leave you with words of encouragement. This is a difficult habit to get in to, don’t give up. Keep following the steps and you will be a skilled procrastinator.
First we should look into why we would want to learn this trait. If you’re in high school and don’t know how then something is wrong. You’re one of those kids who turn that feature story in the morning it’s due, having already had it revised by your old English teacher, parents, and editor of the school newspaper.
Caution: If the above describes you, then you are over achieving and need to be more of a teenager.
The best way to begin the procrastination process is to get ride of the innate desire of being good. Forget that happy tingling feeling you get from turning your overdone assignment. In fact, forget the fresh stack of assignments folded in your binder waiting to be completed. Once you’ve mastered the fact that you aren’t willing to ever do the task you’re ready for the next step.
Find things to distract you. Often people dwindle away their time watching television. Great shows to get hooked on might be Heroes, The Office, or something completely pointless, Desperate Housewives. Beginning this habit can take time, be sure to set aside at least 2 hours a day for the new behavior.
Now you’re time is beginning to be filled up. That’s good: it means you’re another step closer to meeting the goal of procrastination. Here comes the fun part. Open the doors to everything you’ve ever wanted to do, but never felt you had time for. What used to happen on school nights was that you never went out to eat, because you were stuck at home doing homework. That life is in the past! Give in to the temptation it’s okay.
If you followed this plan correctly then you most likely have a different mindset. No longer will you ever have to face the pain of turning things in on time, or starting that project early to save room for even more homework.
Let me leave you with words of encouragement. This is a difficult habit to get in to, don’t give up. Keep following the steps and you will be a skilled procrastinator.
Wednesday, 3 December 2008
The Czech Republic Blues...
I'm pretty sure I already have a post like this. But I have more reminiscing to do.
What got me started was reading in the Newsstreak (our school newspaper) about how a guy in my grade went to France for a summer. He stayed with a host family, spoke french and was confused for a French person. It made me miss the Czech Republic SO badly.
That's a map. Obviously haha. But you can see Mikoluv, I lived there for a month. And then Lednice, I lived there for 9 months. I went to a school in both of those towns. They're 15 km apart. I miss it soooo much. I lived on Kimenskeho (name of my street) it was at the end of the row, and we could walk to railroad tracks. There were beautiful sidewalks everywhere. I loved that house it was SO big. We had a creepy basement that we found all these fur coats in, and we took so many crazy pictures. Our backyard was filled with apricot trees. And they would all fall down and we had to rack them up for our neighbors who wanted them to make wine out of.
There was the most beautiful bike path to brecslav. I would get SO tired because my mom and sister would bike so much faster than me and I couldn't keep up.
I miss the heat of that summer. It was SO warm. Probably because that was the summer of the heat wave. haha.
I remember walking to my friends house, drinking orange juice, and listening to Avril Lavigne and Brittney Spears. That was a really fun day. I felt so free walking around all by myself. It was SO safe there. Mainly because it was such a small town. We walked everywhere, school, post office, grocery store. There was no need to go anywhere else.
Except we did go to church in Brno. It was 30 min. away and they had an awesome mall there. And here in Harrisonburg, outside our target there are these big red balls, just as decoration i guess, but it reminds me of Brno so much. That Brno mall was when I first saw Harry Potter 2, Lord of the Rings 2, and Pirates of the Carribean. I'm pretty sure it was all in czech. But I can't remember. I also ate McDonalds fries there, with sweet ketchup on a very tall stool. I don't know WHY I have that memory but I do. haha. They had a pretty elevator there and one time my class went on a field trip to that mall and we went up and down that elevator SO many times.
This is a picture from Mikoluv. A view from some place that takes forever to get up to. But i remember it distinctly. I remember wanting to jump from roof to roof really badly.
Anyway, I miss the Czech Republic.
What got me started was reading in the Newsstreak (our school newspaper) about how a guy in my grade went to France for a summer. He stayed with a host family, spoke french and was confused for a French person. It made me miss the Czech Republic SO badly.
That's a map. Obviously haha. But you can see Mikoluv, I lived there for a month. And then Lednice, I lived there for 9 months. I went to a school in both of those towns. They're 15 km apart. I miss it soooo much. I lived on Kimenskeho (name of my street) it was at the end of the row, and we could walk to railroad tracks. There were beautiful sidewalks everywhere. I loved that house it was SO big. We had a creepy basement that we found all these fur coats in, and we took so many crazy pictures. Our backyard was filled with apricot trees. And they would all fall down and we had to rack them up for our neighbors who wanted them to make wine out of.
There was the most beautiful bike path to brecslav. I would get SO tired because my mom and sister would bike so much faster than me and I couldn't keep up.
I miss the heat of that summer. It was SO warm. Probably because that was the summer of the heat wave. haha.
I remember walking to my friends house, drinking orange juice, and listening to Avril Lavigne and Brittney Spears. That was a really fun day. I felt so free walking around all by myself. It was SO safe there. Mainly because it was such a small town. We walked everywhere, school, post office, grocery store. There was no need to go anywhere else.
Except we did go to church in Brno. It was 30 min. away and they had an awesome mall there. And here in Harrisonburg, outside our target there are these big red balls, just as decoration i guess, but it reminds me of Brno so much. That Brno mall was when I first saw Harry Potter 2, Lord of the Rings 2, and Pirates of the Carribean. I'm pretty sure it was all in czech. But I can't remember. I also ate McDonalds fries there, with sweet ketchup on a very tall stool. I don't know WHY I have that memory but I do. haha. They had a pretty elevator there and one time my class went on a field trip to that mall and we went up and down that elevator SO many times.
This is a picture from Mikoluv. A view from some place that takes forever to get up to. But i remember it distinctly. I remember wanting to jump from roof to roof really badly.
Anyway, I miss the Czech Republic.
Our School Is On Lock Down
I'm starving. We just had to stand in the corner away from the windows to hide from bad guys. If they're really here. We're not sure because it could be a drill. But Ms. Reynolds sounded pretty legit when she was over the intercom. She was like stuttering and sounded scared. So now we have to stay in the classroom and I'm HUNGRY.
I think it's a drug search.
I think it's a drug search.
Tuesday, 2 December 2008
I need to try harder
My second 6 weeks grades were a little shocking. Mainly because none of my teachers handed back a single assignment, the entire six weeks. I had no idea what my grades were! I ended up with a C in Algebra. That's depressing. And a 92% in AP Lang. SOOOOO close to an A. I feel like no matter how hard I work in that class I'll never be able to get an A. I'm not sure why either, I think I'll have to have a talk with my teacher. Maybe my grammar is terrible, or maybe I'm not funny enough in my writing. I don't have strong adjectives or good verbs. Every essay I get back is graded either a 6 or a 7. I want an 8. That's not even asking too much, it's not perfect. It's just an A.
So, this six weeks I need to try even harder if that's even possible.
So, this six weeks I need to try even harder if that's even possible.
The Real World vs. High School
The real world is so much easier than high school. Think about it. In the real world there are directions all over the place in posts offices, airports, etc. In high school there aren’t any signs, just room numbers so you have to run all the way down the hallway to see if number 375 is there, and if its’ not turn and go down another hallway. The people that’s another thing. In the real world everyone minds their own business or they give a friendly wave and move on. In high school you meet someone one day, and find out later they’ve known about you for a long time and are the ones who spread the rumor last year about your boyfriend and spring break. That rumor lasted your entire sophomore year! In the real world if you need to talk to someone you don’t spend valuable thumb energy texting them, or facebooking them (not to mention all the misreading tones, “oh you were happy? I thought you were yelling at me!”). You pick up the phone and call them or you meet up somewhere and talk to them face to face! Plus you aren’t graded on everything you do, you aren’t constantly being judged, and you can change your mind anytime you want without people flipping out that you’re changing. Basically, I can’t wait to graduate and be done with all the secrets and crazy teenage hormones. Good thing I have the rest of my life to live in the real world.
Monday, 1 December 2008
Pointless
Thanksgiving was pretty fun. I reconnected with relatives and now I'm facebook friends with them. I don't know where I'd be without facebook. Goodness...
I just came back from lunch and I didn't have forensics practice! YAY! But I have it on wednesday... BOO. But I have musical rehearsal then. So everything kind of evens out. Plus I just had ice cream, so i'm happy.
I'm drawing a blank of what to say right now. I had all these thoughts and important things to say, but I guess I wrote it already in a note to my BFF. And I haven't seen her and I want to talk to her, and give her my flashdrive so she can give me music.
This post was pointless.
I just came back from lunch and I didn't have forensics practice! YAY! But I have it on wednesday... BOO. But I have musical rehearsal then. So everything kind of evens out. Plus I just had ice cream, so i'm happy.
I'm drawing a blank of what to say right now. I had all these thoughts and important things to say, but I guess I wrote it already in a note to my BFF. And I haven't seen her and I want to talk to her, and give her my flashdrive so she can give me music.
This post was pointless.
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